Caught in deep water drowning in my thoughts

Lucia

The water was teeth shivering cold.

With one toe I felt my spine fall apart unable to hold.

My head above water with my body under swallowing me whole.

The royal family sent an invitation scroll.

Masquerade, covering up the face of the devil but listening to the voice of an angel.

I dreamed of this moment but I kept getting myself in deep water, to which I couldn't label.

My mind ran in circles over and over until I put my thoughts to rest in the body of water I call peace.

Water can help you but also kill you.

My thoughts were crashing waves.

I actually thought I was brave.

The water that surrounds has helped me but I wonder when it will kill me?