Distance Memories

Lucia

I remember all too well the feeling of being with you.

I dreamt of you and it made me miss you.

Miss you enough to crave your attention again.

If I saw you again would you say who are you?

My imagination is getting the best of me reality doesn't even trust me.

Crave your attention again? Is this another lie I have to maintain in order to regain?

Regain what though? My sanity.

Loneliness makes you miss people that you want to forget.

Missing you is something I regret.

I don't think I even felt my best with you, only a delusional I kept feeding myself until gluttony took over my body.

I continued to eat up these delusional until they left me with a stomachache.

Stomachache that made heartache look like a piece of cake.

A cake that had been baked in my mind for so long that it left me burned.

Now I'm stuck with a burn cake and stomachache to which my distance memories turned into another accessory for me to hold on to.

Caught in deep water drowning in my thoughts

Lucia

The water was teeth shivering cold.

With one toe I felt my spine fall apart unable to hold.

My head above water with my body under swallowing me whole.

The royal family sent an invitation scroll.

Masquerade, covering up the face of the devil but listening to the voice of an angel.

I dreamed of this moment but I kept getting myself in deep water, to which I couldn't label.

My mind ran in circles over and over until I put my thoughts to rest in the body of water I call peace.

Water can help you but also kill you.

My thoughts were crashing waves.

I actually thought I was brave.

The water that surrounds has helped me but I wonder when it will kill me?