Caught in deep water drowning in my thoughts

Lucia

The water was teeth shivering cold.

With one toe I felt my spine fall apart unable to hold.

My head above water with my body under swallowing me whole.

The royal family sent an invitation scroll.

Masquerade, covering up the face of the devil but listening to the voice of an angel.

I dreamed of this moment but I kept getting myself in deep water, to which I couldn't label.

My mind ran in circles over and over until I put my thoughts to rest in the body of water I call peace.

Water can help you but also kill you.

My thoughts were crashing waves.

I actually thought I was brave.

The water that surrounds has helped me but I wonder when it will kill me?

Loneliness is the worse friend

Lucia

I sat in my room day after day.

I wondered if someone was going to ask me to play.

I wrote letter after letter with no response, how could someone just forget me?

I felt like my presence was only needed when someone was bored.

I loved the clothes I wore because they filled that void of being alone but now I'm seen as a whore.

Is this what loneliness is?

The one friend that never leaves but always makes you feel alone?

I want constant interaction with someone with just a little time.

I crave attention from someone but that's just too much to climb.

A list of names

A list of letters

A list of sent messages

All for me to sit by the door waiting for the mailman who doesn't seem to come.

Tears filled my eyes as the friends I thought I had turned me numb.

Loneliness leads to picking flowers from a garden with no soil to grow.